hypochondriac .me

Worrying is my habit. A habit is something that is repeated involuntarily. Mental habit.

Yesterday, I have not been sleeping for 32 hours. I suffered on stomach pain and awake from my dream.I turn on all the lights in my room, sat up, take a deep breath and tell myself "is just a dream...."

but after 30 minutes, my stomach are still in pain. Then I start to think, thinking somethings might goes wrong with me and its going to kill me. I've good imagination (always) I've think of I've been warded into hospital that have no internet connection, tasteless food, angry nurses, dying roommates (dying patient), sleeping alone in the ward....Nurse chasing Caterpillar away saying visiting time up!

By imagining all this shit, it actually worsen my conditions, I feel like want to puke so I ran to the washroom, stand infront the sink and start puking.....eventually, nothing comes out...so I went back and lie on my bed, feeling hopeless and thought of I might not make it until tomorrow....

So without hesitation, I've make a phone call to Caterpillar (at 3.30am) in the morning an suprisingly, he actually picked up the phone. Then I started to burse into tears telling him all the shit moment I have just now.As usal, this smelly Caterpillar comford me and asked me to go to bed, everything will going to be alright...and suggested me to go for exersise....-___- ||| after I spoke to him, I felt slightly better but my stomach are still in pain.So, I've picked up the IKEA catalog and read it until 7a.m in the morning and I go to work after this...

Now I know,every ache and pain I have is probably going to be just that - a temporary ache.To clear my mind, I think I need to go for a full-body check-up.

and stop worring too much!