Ok I might be very immature to said this : I do care about all those words like "you're fat, you have wide shoulder, your calf is so fucking fat, why your face got so many pimples, go to get a haircut, why do you dress up this way..." Seriously, do I really look that bad? that bad????
I've tried to stay calm and cool all when I hear all these comments, but when I get home and look into the mirror I think "aaaahh...this is me...chubby,messy hair and face flooded with blardy pimples" and then, I get pretty pretty envy when I browse through FB and see some of my friend look so pretty and well groom.
And what I observe when I was walking on the street with someother girl friend, no boys seem to want to check out on me, and they don't even bother to look at me. haih...and I told myself, my boyfriend love me, don't bother on looking into others guy, that's the best excuse I use to cover that ugly true.
The naive side of me even think that if they're calling me ugly, chances are, they like me. because boys usually mean opposite of what they, unless they're truly sweet. If they say you look chubby is actually = to you look gorgeous! hrmmmm!
I thought this would get better as my moods get better. Because I might over reacted on people comments and well my moods got better..But I still have no idea of who that person in the mirror is and I still feel ugly and depress.
Ok better stop of being drama.
for the time being, what I hear is just tattletale,
I hope it is.
Please do.
And what I observe when I was walking on the street with someother girl friend, no boys seem to want to check out on me, and they don't even bother to look at me. haih...and I told myself, my boyfriend love me, don't bother on looking into others guy, that's the best excuse I use to cover that ugly true.
The naive side of me even think that if they're calling me ugly, chances are, they like me. because boys usually mean opposite of what they, unless they're truly sweet. If they say you look chubby is actually = to you look gorgeous! hrmmmm!
I thought this would get better as my moods get better. Because I might over reacted on people comments and well my moods got better..But I still have no idea of who that person in the mirror is and I still feel ugly and depress.
Ok better stop of being drama.
for the time being, what I hear is just tattletale,
I hope it is.
Please do.
3 comments:
Seriously? With comments like those, I wouldn't consider those idiots friends. To befriend someone would mean that you accept your friend for who she or he is - that is called True Friendship. It is hard to find true friends around that is why you can count them with your fingers and still have got leftovers.
Just be yourself, love. They are not worth being depressed over. Trust me. I know, a part of you might care even though you might tell yourself, "Hey, what the heck?! I do not care what others think of me..." Yet, you have to always remind yourself that acceptance is crucial. Negative comments are worthless. Period. ;)
*hugs*
AT least you still have your boyfriend and I have no one. THe only one dumped me and leave me bottomless tears.
Love oneself first... The most basic of all love actions. If the person dumps you, s/he doesn't deserve you, or maybe, both aren't compatible. It is better to let go and move on than to continue and hurt each other even more.
Tears, the emotional character of a human being. Much needed, and always a pleasure to let them out. But, after a cry or two, plan your life and get on with it. Life is just too short.
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